Such a crazy time – but so much for me to be grateful for.
Time at home with my family. I am so grateful that my boys are healthy and happy and that I get to be with them every day right now. There are health care workers who are currently quarantined from their kids; I can’t even imagine it. I’m praying for those families and I’m grateful to be with my children at this stressful time.
Great books. Currently reading White Fragility and Moriarty and finished Magpie Murders and The Glass Hotel earlier this month, which were both excellent!
My job. Never been more grateful to have a steady job and income.
Fun activities to do with the boys. This month we made oobleck, bubble foam, cloud dough, salt dough, and more. I love it. I’m not so much into “let’s sit down and make a butterfly out of a tissue paper and a clothespin”, but I do love following a recipe with the boys and making items to be used for sensory play.
My healthy extended family.
I’m watching the news and I’m hearing stories about horrible things. I have friends who have lost loved ones. People are stressed and suffering and grieving and dying. Never a more important time to take stock and to be grateful.
Tomorrow is Jonas’s adoption day! On April 26, 2019, his adoption was finalized in Baltimore County court. He was ours from the very beginning, but he legally and officially become OURS that day.
I love celebrating Adoption Day with our boys. Our tradition is that we go back to the Towson Diner, which is the place we went for brunch after each of our boys’ adoption days, and we eat pancakes for dinner. We sing the Happy Adoption Day song. We also tell the boys their adoption story and look at their life book together. It’s a day of sharing memories and stories as a family.
This is Jonas’s first adoption day since everything was finalized in court, and sadly we won’t be able to visit the Towson Diner for our tradition due to the coronavirus pandemic. We’ll make it a special day here at home; pictures to come!
Last summer, I spent a lot of time reading and listening to books about parenting. This was not a proactive endeavor; it was 100% reactive. Jonas wasn’t sleeping through the night and Edgar was, you know, being a three-year-old. So I did what I always do when I have a problem I don’t know how to solve: I looked for a book to help me out.
SO. MANY. BOOKS. And they were all helpful in their own ways; I took tips and techniques away from them all. One thing I’ve noticed about me and Tamara is – we’re a sort in-between when it comes to our parenting strategies. We have friends who are super into discipline and compliance, friends who are 100% into Waldorf or Montessori or attachment parenting, friends who are extremely focused on education and learning.
And the thing about us is – we’re a lot of different things. We let our babies cry at night – a little. We don’t co-sleep. We allow a lot of free play and open-ended activities, but we – particularly me – also enjoy doing activities or projects that are a little more structured. We didn’t do any screen time until Edgar was 3, and since then we’ve done just a little. (More since the coronavirus pandemic started, for sure!)
So there’s not one philosophy or style for us, and I think that’s probably true for most parents. We’re all blending different values and principles and trying to come up with rules and routines and rituals that work for us. AND, if we’re doing it with a partner, we’re having to compromise periodically when we’re not on the same page.
But as I read through these books, and reflected on the different ways there are to be a parent, one question kept coming up for me:
What kind of a parent do I want to be?
There are so many options, and you don’t have to just pick one. You can be hands-off or hands-on. You can be laidback or structured. When I really zeroed in on the kind of parent I want to be, I came up with three words, and two of them are in the title of this blog.
The three words that best describe the kind of mom I want to be are playful, peaceful, and present.
I want to be playful and silly with my kids. I want to turn things into a game whenever I can. (A highly recommended strategy to enhance cooperation in many of the parenting books I read.)
I want to be peaceful. I want to stay calm, for my own well-being – it does not feel good to get caught up in a toddler’s emotional storm. And I want to be a calm center for my kids – a “place” they can come to get reoriented when they’re feeling dysregulated.
I want to be present. Oh, man, is this hard in the age of cell phones! I want to be fully present for my boys; I want them to have my full attention, and I want to teach them to give their full attention to everything they do. Especially the important things.
Playful. Peaceful. Present.
I’m working from home with my two boys for the foreseeable future. I need these words. May they become my mantra.
Ever since I started working from home with my boys (ages 1 and 3) home with me, the first morning of the work week has been a clusterfreak. (Keepin’ it PG-13 on here!)
I think it’s a combination of factors that are causing the havoc.
I don’t WANT to “go to work.” (Imagine that said in the whiniest kid voice possible!) I want to just play with my kiddos. I definitely prefer working from home to having to be away from them all day, but really, I’d love to just play and be silly with them all day long.
I don’t always have a plan for the day, and I think our days go best when I have a plan. They don’t have to know what it is. The plan doesn’t even need to be executed well! It doesn’t matter if they do the awesome craft activity; it just matters that I’ve thought through our day with some intention and have a few activities or projects up my sleeve.
I sometimes have a Zoom meeting first thing Monday morning (like 8 a.m.), and that seems to set us off on the wrong foot immediately. We can’t go outside or be on a hike while I have a meeting; they usually are just playing (and not understanding why I’m not paying attention to them) or watching a show (which seems to just set the wrong tone for the rest of the morning).
Pretty much every day, I try to get the boys in the car to go for a hike right after breakfast. There are days when I feel lazy about this, or when the weather’s not great, and the hike doesn’t happen. And that’s okay!
But I am going to start putting forth a special effort to make Mondays a good and positive day for us. That means a hike as early in the day as we can, possibly followed by a treat (Dunkin’ Donuts drive thru is an option), and a few special activities planned for the day. My theory is that I need to devote a lot of energy and creativity to the FIRST day of the week. If Tuesday or Wednesday end up being a little lazier or less creative – well, at least we’ve eased into the week with a good day already. My mood, as the parent, really is a big factor in how our days go. And I am better able to have the patience and energy to get through a tough day when I have the confidence of a good day already.
I am working really hard at my job – but the most important thing to me right now is being a present, playful, and peaceful person for my kids. I am hoping that this Monday will be a day that sets a nice tone for the rest of the “work week.” But if not? Then TUESDAY will be the new Monday. And it will all be okay.
A few months ago, I read How To Talk So Little Kids Will Listen by Joanna Faber and Julie King. I liked it a lot. It’s so easy, when you’re in the middle of parenting little kids, to forget your intentions and just lecture or yell or get frustrated.
I have a bunch of takeaways, and I think I’ll often refer
Takeaway # 1: Try it out on yourself. If you were having a lousy day, how would you feel or respond if someone acted the way you are acting toward your kid? How would you feel if someone:
denied your feelings? (It’s not that bad. You love this dinner. You don’t hate school.)
gave you advice or a lecture?
compared you with another kid?
asked a bunch of questions? (Why did you do that when you know you shouldn’t?)
Probably not good, right? Try it out on yourself and see how it feels. Then check in with yourself and make sure you’re parenting the way you want to.
Takeaway # 2: Acknowledge feelings with words.
Takeaway # 3: All feelings can be accepted. Some actions must be limited. (I can see you’re angry. I can’t let you hit me.)
Takeaway # 4: Sit on those “buts.” Say, “The problem is…” instead. Saying but indicates, I hear how you feel and now I’ll tell you why that feeling is wrong. The problem is suggests that there’s a problem that can be solved without sweeping away the feeling. Also, you can use, “Even though you know…” (You don’t want to leave the playground. The problem is, it’s almost dinnertime.) (Even though you know you have to wash your hands after you use the potty, you really wish you didn’t have to so that you could get back to playing with trucks.)
Takeaway # 5: Acknowledge feelings with writing or drawing. (Write or draw how they feel.)
Takeaway # 6: Give in fantasy what you can’t give in reality. “Wouldn’t it be nice if we could have candy every day?”
Takeaway # 7: Resist the urge to ask questions of a disturbed child. (I’m really good at this when it comes to my students, but not with my own kids. I constantly ask my three-year-old why he did things. Spoiler alert: usually, he doesn’t know why.)
Takeaway # 8: FOR COOPERATION:
Be playful. (Make inanimate objects talk. Turn a task into a goal (time them) or a game. Talk in funny voices. Freeze like an iceberg. Avoid lava quicksand (when you’re trying to walk somewhere). Give them an energy pill that makes them clean up really fast. Make up different characters – Dress Up Ninja Mommy. Pretend you’re flying. Be an animal – what animal should we be on our way up the stairs today?
Offer a choice. Do you want to skip to the car or take giant steps? Do you want your bath with boats or bubbles? Do you want to put your pajamas on the regular way or inside out? What else could you cut?
That’s all I have for now, but there’s way more. I ended up buying a copy of the book for future reference. Highly recommend.
I read a book a while ago called Peaceful Parent Happy Kids by Dr. Laura Markham. I listened to it during the first week of the school year.
I reached for this book because I found myself becoming impatient and snappy with Edgar. When I ponder about the kind of mom I want to be, I think of three words: peaceful, playful, and present. So this book seemed like it would be a wonderful resource.
The book focuses on three main things: self-regulation for parents, connecting with your child, and coaching rather than controlling.
One of my favorite takeaways from this book is the idea of Special Time with your child. The book describes Special Time as a period (around 15 minutes) of completely focused play with your child, and suggests alternating between parent and child for activity choice. Ever since Jonas came home, I’ve noticed how challenging it is to manage life with two kids – particularly play time with two kids. It’s been difficult to play with Edgar in a focused and intentional way with Jonas trying to climb onto the kitchen table and then jump off. After reading about Special Time, I’ve been using Jonas’s morning nap time as a time to engage Edgar in play that’s just for him. Sometimes I just devote my full attention to him and let him pick what we play; sometimes I facilitate a crafty activity that would be impossible to do if Jonas were with us, like painting or jewelry making. It’s been really sweet and wonderful for both of us.
One of the other concepts in the book that I really like was the idea of natural or logical consequences instead of punishment. Dr. Markham offers these six tips for effective consequences:
Focus on what you control.
Be matter of fact.
Accept your limits.
Use “I” not “you” statements.
Here are my other takeaways, in no particular order:
Be calm, kind, and patient. I mean, duh? But in real life, this is really, really hard!
Give fewer warnings and have more follow through. I love this. Sometimes I give so many warnings that by the time I follow through on a “consequence,” I’m way too frustrated to follow through with a calm and loving voice.
Engage in rough housing or giggly play so that your child can release stress.
Make things into a game whenever you can. It’s time for bed, but let’s take a horsey ride to get there!
Have child-directed play every day.
Give hugs and maintain the connection!
Look out for situations you can prevent.
Have regular end of day feelings talk and gratitude practice.
When we stay calm, we calm the situation down.
You can break a cycle. You can press a restart button anytime!
Figure out why you’re getting angry. Sometimes, I get super frustrated with Edgar, and then I realize that I’m frustrated because I’m tired or hungry. Sometimes I realize it’s because I’m beating myself up for not being better at some aspect of being a mom. Sometimes I realize it’s because I want him to be able to do something independently that he just can’t do yet. When I realize why I’m getting angry, I can either plan around it, fix it, or just allow that insight to help me with increasing my ability to accept the situation and be patient.
Wait before disciplining. You do THIS while I think about this.
STOP YELLING. If you find yourself angry or yelling, drop it immediately! Kids can’t learn if you’re yelling and they’re scared and insecure.
Ask yourself – when I’m losing my patience and my temper – what thought am I having?
Tell yourself and your kid – “We got this.”
If you are resolving to be more patient, it’s a sign that your cup isn’t full enough to begin with. What can you do to increase your capacity and energy when you’re NOT around your kids?
Don’t leave or abandon him if he’s tantrumming – he needs you! This one is tricky for me. I like the idea – but Tamara and I usually make an exception for when Edgar’s kicking or hitting, since time away from us usually helps him to de-escalate during those moments.
Turn things into a game or a joke (while still enforcing the rules). I love this. Sometimes, I can sense when either Edger or I or both of us are headed in the direction of frustrated, and I can quickly come up with something silly to change the mood – like pretending that we’re washing our hands with maple syrup instead of soap. HILARIOUS to a three-year-old.
You don’t yell at a flower that’s not thriving – you water it! I am fairly firm and boundaried as a parent; I think it’s good for kids to have limits and structure. But I don’t think yelling is ever helpful, at least not for me – it just makes me feel bad and doesn’t seem to correct any behaviors. (Don’t get me wrong – I have moments when I yell! Well, not yell, but raise my voice. But it’s never my intention.) Instead I believe in trying to find out what need is not being met, at the moments when I start to yell. Like, Edgar using ALLLLLLL the soap in the bottle to wash his hands – really, he often shows signs that he can’t wash his hands independently yet. He loves water play, and I think it’s just too tempting. So I need to stay with him during hand washing time. Annoying – but more helpful than yelling at him after the behavior happens!)
I loved this book. I’ll end with this bit: Dr. Markham writes that you, as parent, are your kid’s most trusted source for information about the world and himself. And that the parent is the kid’s secure base so that he can feel safe enough to explore the world.
That’s huge, impactful, and it makes a lot of sense to me. Reeeally hoping it helps me to keep my cool the next time Edgar fills the bathroom sink with soap, water, and cars and tells me that he made his own car wash. Fingers crossed!