I’ve been thinking hard about ways to cultivate mindfulness in my everyday life. Lately I’m trying to face up to my sort-of-chronic anxiety, and friends have advised me that mindfulness is an effective tool to use.
Sometimes, mommying can be helpful in this way. I’ve realized that right now, my mommying time is the least stressful thing in my life. Not that it’s not tiring or stressful or worry-inducing in its own way – but I feel the most in the zone and in the flow when I am mommying Teddy.
Today we were curled up reading a book together, and I realized that reading to Teddy is one of the few times of day when I am completely and totally engrossed in the task at hand and not multi-tasking in any way.
That’s a breath of fresh air, for me.
Not everything I do with Teddy is quite as mindful. Sometimes, when we take our walks outside, I have a podcast playing on my phone while we walk and play. I try not to beat myself up about this, but it’s definitely something I’d like to be different someday.
One of my intentions for 2018 was to meditate more – again, with the hope t
hat it will help my anxiety. I’ve been doing pretty well with this habit, but I’m grateful for the mommying moments that pull me into the present.
SIDEBAR: we just borrowed a book from the library called Baby Present, by Rachel Neumann, which I got partially because I thought Teddy would like it and partially because the book is basically a mini meditation. It’s delightful and I feel myself relax into the moment every time we read it.