The giving and receiving of gifts is not one of my Love Languages.
(In case you have no idea what I’m talking about, you can read a mini-summary of Love Languages in this old post.)
The whole ritual of gifts is, from beginning to end, stressful to me. I get extremely stressed when someone watches me open a gift. I worry about what my expression and body language will tell the gift giver about what I think of the gift. I also worry that my worrying will prevent me from having a genuine reaction to the gift, so that even if I looooove the gift, I’ll end up flashing the gift giver an awkward smile instead of a genuine grin.
Ugh. I can’t imagine any overthinker really enjoying the process of gift giving. There’s too much to overthink.
I also get really stressed while considering what to buy for others. I don’t like this about myself, but I get extremely overwhelmed, especially during the holidays. There’s no way I can come up with a perfect gift, that is thoughtful, generous, and is something the person would never buy for themselves (my three key factors for an awesome gift) for EVERY SINGLE PERSON I buy gifts for! I also hate the obligation of gift giving. I love when no gift is expected and I can surprise someone with a gift I know they’ll love. But that’s not the case during the holidays. And the pressure that I have to buy SOMETHING gets in the way of my capacity for being inspired to buy something meaningful.
I don’t share this particular anxiety with a lot of people. If I really let loose and share my internal monologue related to gift giving, I get a lot of weird looks and sympathetic smiles. Because, this is madness, right? The giving of gifts is supposed to be joyful.
Yeah. For me, not so much.
However, when I DO buy a present that someone loves, I feel absolutely delighted. (This happened during Christmas 2017 and it made me SO happy!) And when someone manages to get me with a gift that’s thoughtful and surprising, I am overwhelmed with gratitude.
Tee knocked it out of the park this Christmas:
I. CAN’T. EVEN. BELIEVE. IT.
There’s a long running and biking trail that cuts right through our property. And, coming in spring 2018, there will be a Little Free Library right here at Wild Peace Farm!