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My Perfect Day #soul

When I am overwhelmed, I often start trying to do this thing.

I start daydreaming about My Perfect Day.

I start thinking about a hypothetical perfect day when I do everything I need to do, perfectly, flawlessly.  I work out.  I meditate.  I call my family.  I spend time with friends.  I write.  I read.  On this perfect day, I say and do everything so well that I feel awesome and amazing and never have a bad day again.

I plot out this day.  I write lists on lined paper and scrawl My Perfect Day across the top of the paper.  I decide on a schedule that I’ll follow every day so that I can ensure that I am taking care of all aspects of myself.  My Perfect Day always includes meditation, yoga, running, time with Tee, and all the other things that I’ve deemed I need on a daily basis to keep myself grounded and whole.  13495146_1023846291034597_3675100431032092705_n

This is a pretty compulsive, over-the-top, uber-planned-out, insane way of living.

I am trying to re-work this strategy.

Because really, I do much better at living life when I take things one day at a time.

I feel kind of disconnected lately.  It’s been a long time since I’ve experienced a Moment of Flow – and this is confusing to me, since right now I pretty much have everything I could possibly want in the world!

When I realized this – this lack of flow in my life – I definitely kicked into My Perfect Day mode.  “I need to meditate every morning when I wake up!”  “No more coffee!”  “Yoga during Teddy’s morning nap!”

Yeah – I know that’s not how it works.  You can’t plan your way into perfection.  All you can do is take things one day at a time and do your best to live with intention.

And hope that the Moments of Flow are on their way.

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